Tuesday, June 16, 2009
The final 21 days?

It's the first time putting a number to the time I get to spend back home. It's the first time wondering how would that 21 days pass by. It's the first time I really wished that these 21 days would never pass. I still have not really come to terms with the fact that this could be the last 21 days I'd be able to see her, to speak to her, and hopefully hear her speak, if she could even survive till my return in the first place. I'm sure she can. I'm sure she can even last till way after my brother's return. "Your days are numbered" - I can't even imagine how it would feel like if your doctor finally puts an estimate number to how long you live. I can't even imagine how it'd feel like if you know you're going to die in x days. Yet I'm now capping my interaction with her to 21 days. I can't imagine how I'd feel on the 21st day. The day before I leave Singapore, the day when I had to say goodbye. How can I even leave knowing that it could possibly be the last time I'd see her? But I guess 21 is a good number. It'll bring her luck and I'd still be able to see her at the end of the year.

Helpless! I guess that's why I had immersed myself in games recently. To feel the control of destiny within my grasp... To enter the digital world, and to forget the cold reality.

The last time my maternal grandmother passed on, she made me promised that I'd get 4As. She wanted me to succeed in life. And I did. I realized my promise to her. This time, I'm going to promise my paternal grandmother that I'd succeed in life. I will realize this promise like I had done so before.
posted by Juxling at 12:44 PM

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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.