Read from Jess's blog about calling names. No, not about friends calling each other names or an ah beng having a conversation with a staring stranger. It's about naming your children. In essence, the report says your naming of your children has got to do with their future. A more manly name like Alex will result in a more manly profession like Scientist (Don't really agree that this is a manly profession in this age. But if compared to knitting, that's probably pretty manly). A more feminine name like Isabelle tends to pursue a more feminine profession like art (Don't really agree that art is that feminine too, actually). I guess, that makes a little sense. After all, people do react differently to Alex and Isabelle.

Come to think of it, perhaps my feminine characteristics are partially results from my name too. Jun... which sounds like June, is pretty feminine until one sees how well-built that person is. :P. But come to think of it, I think I'm really quite feminine in many ways. I guess that's why I'm so affected by different stages of life where people part. The thought of not being able to see someone I value for the next 7 years, makes me sad.

Seven of us, 5 will be working together. 1 will be in Japan. And 1 in US. The 5 working together naturally don't have much reasons to be affected, cos it's only 2 less people around, and 1 of them probably isn't as significant. The one going to japan, though a girl, probably is much stronger than I am in terms of human relations. For me, what I'll be missing is not 2 people, but 6, of which I value 1 much more than the others. These 6 people have been with me through one of the most important stages of my life, the 3 years which transformed me immensely. Which is why these 6 people also deserved my making of video for them. Cos that shows how much I appreciated them. But after 2 weeks, we will have to part. Or at least, I will have to part with them, not back to home where all my other friends are, but to another place which I'll be unfamiliar with. But this time is different from 3 years ago. 3 years ago, I have these 6 friends from home. This time, I'm really alone. Alone in this new stage of life. Who can I turn to with my fears? What meaningful possessions can I look at other than the four walls in that empty apartment in Rolling Meadows when I'm bored at night?

I remember someone told me that I should say out whatever's troubling me, so that that someone can do something about it. So I did. But seems to me the results were no different than not saying out, or in fact, worse. Oh well... Looks like I need a lot more practise on this. I'm really not good at this. After all, I've never done this before.

Anyway, shall dedicate the next few lines just for you.

Just wanna let you know, I really do cherish you. You are a real friend. And just by being there, and the many intangible things that you've done for me, makes you distinct from many others. I know you treat me like a real friend too. Sorry. It's just the choice of my name that makes me an over-sentimental person. I'm now contented with what you've already sacrificed for me.

End of dedication.

But I'm still proud to be a sentimental person. =) I still look at the photo frames on my shelf! Sihui's one, my buddy's one and the one which Nic and friends gave in ermz... J2? Nic was so unchio then. hahaha~ And herc's still a shadow! My shadow!!! Not even his!!!