Friday, December 08, 2006
I haven't realized the importance of front stage and back stage until now. In the past, I used to think that I should show people what I truly am. Indeed, that was true, but should only be restrained to the sec sch and jc days... in fact jc times are a little fuzzy already. I mean, I already seldom show my true self to people. Not that I'm trying to hide it, I just don't bother to show it much since I don't interact really closely with many people. But whatever you manage to see from me, that's me. I don't really care how people think of me in the past. Cos it's really their business to form whatever impression they want about me, and I can't really do much to control that. And I don't believe in purposefully hiding all my emotions and thoughts. I thought that was just hypocritical and fake. And it's kinda sad that you do not see the real faces of the people you know. Just their masks which happen to look like their faces. Well, those were the young days when people don't really care.

But now, I have come to realized that things are getting more and more complicated. It's no longer as easy as you get what you see. Maybe it's a different class of people I'm mixing with now... and I'm not used to it, since all my friends I've made in my entire life have been those 坦率 one. It's just so hard to guess what people are thinking now.

In the recent years, I've changed and opened up a lot. I've shown people too much of myself. And that really is not like me in the past. I don't even bother to show others anything about myself at all last time. Many don't even know I play the organ or what I'm good at, until they really come close to me and see for themselves. Probably it's time to return to those days, and retain some mysteries about myself. Or maybe I should just integrate into the society and put on a front stage and a back stage... People don't have to know so much about the real me. They just have to know about the ideal/interactive me. Only those who have come close will know my true worth, be it good or bad. Ah well, I've just found a really nice backstage for myself. And I'm pretty comfortable with it, as I could do whatever I like in there, especially when I'm vexed about life issues. haha~ So you probably would see less ugly grumbles here on this blog, unless I purposely put here to gain sympathy or it's neutral grumbles, like blardy hw or sth... More Personal grumbles are of course channeled elsewhere for greater good. yeah! Perhaps, setting up a back stage will make me a happier person!!! yeah!!! Of course my backstage has cctv cameras installed and I'd know firsthand if anyone ever entered that and would definitely shift elsewhere. It's definitely not hard to find it, but once found, it would be made impossible for anyone to find it again.

Anyway, humans are too complicated and unfathomable for simple-minded people like me to comprhend. :P Ah well... who cares?! So long as I live my life and be happy! Why care about how others think?!! What can they do anyway? Kill me? :P hehe~ Life is too short to be unhappy too long about stuff... yeah! :)
posted by Juxling at 1:24 PM

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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.