只是时辰未到。。。

Who has a better grasp of this phrase? sighz... i hate exams, i hate school! They stress the person around me. If there's no exams, there's lab. There's no lab when there're exams. Be it exams or no exams, essentially the end result is the same - a lonesome guy sadly abandoned in his room on a nice long Tuesday afternoon. What does this guy have to say? 只是时辰未到。。。

Alrght, I'm complaining. Not because I don't understand the situation. Just complaining because I hate this sucky semester, not that I'm super occupied with school work. It just sux.

Have tons of stuff waiting for me to accomplish this semester. But somehow I just lost all the motivation to do any. Didn't feel like doing the hw today, that's due tomorrow. So much stuff to do, and yet none is done. Is there a pill that I can take to forget all my worries and concerns of the future? Or do I just need someone? How can I gather all my energy and focus on the greater tasks? I've been sleeping 10 hrs (collectively) for the past few days and sometimes even slept till I get headaches due to overdose of sleep, not because I have nothing to do, but because I just don't feel like doing anything. My world seemed to have stopped turning even though time goes on (as quickly).

Have you ever boiled a covered pan full of water? What happens when it starts boiling? What happens if the cover is forcefully held in place to prevent any steam from leaking out? Would you like to take the shoes of that pan?

Made carrot cake just now, which pretty sucked. It really shouldn't have happened, especially after so many successful attempts... but it still did. Perhaps I really wasn't concentrating. I can't even catch such a common mistake in culinary, which spoilt the entire dish. My heart must be in a daze these days. That's why cannot 用心去做。

How I wish there's someone who'd give me a real warm hug and tell me all is well. How I wish I could escape to some place far far away. Perhaps, I could only do that in my dreams. To be with the person I wish I could be with. To bask in happiness. All possible only in dreams. But dreams are but a fleeting experience. I have to wake up to the harsh reality at end of it. Even 10 hrs has an end to it. Why can't things just happen the way I want? Perhaps... perhaps it's God's decision that it should not start so soon, so that it would last when it really starts, so that I'd really really cherish it when it finally comes. But is it really necessary to bottle and suppress these emotions? It's really really going to explode within the self, and it's already on the verge of it despite it being only a few days. I don't want to kill these emotions, cos they aren't going to come back at the end of this journey. What can I do? Is there an abyss which I can shout into and not have anyone hear it? ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!... ... ... arrgh... I think I really need a hug.

Probably will have to do that in the virtual world of dreams, since it's never going happen in reality. Ahhh! I hate my life! I hate this sem! I hate exams! I hate labs! I hate school! If starting something is potentially miserable, holding it off it isn't much better either.

PS: Why do I have to make myself busy when others are free and free when others are busy? I just pray that the things I hope for would turn for the better next sememster, not worse.

PS2: Can May 18 2007 come faster???

PS3: Need to get it.