Had a conversation with a friend yesterday about someone (a banker) who had gotten a year's bonus because the bank did well that year. And he asked me why did I ever chose engineering when I planned to go on with an MBA. That was really an interesting question, and the answer I have is probably one of the few unwavered ones over the last 2 years of turbulence.

Why did I choose engineering? That's just because I had always wanted to contribute something more meaningful to the world. While I really hope that I'd be able to make a name for myself one day by making something that will be remembered, the very least I can do is to contribute to part of something. At least this is much more interesting than sitting in the office and look at figures and stocks the whole day for one's entire life. That is really a waste of life, in my opinion. Not saying that it's a bad profession, in fact, financially, it's a really good job. The starting pay was 3.8k and after a few years, 5k. But if you glance back at life at the very end of it, you really have nothing really physical to be proud of other than the wealth you've managed to accumulate. You have done nothing to make the world better, or to aid in continuing the existence of Man. You are selfish. What you have done is just to make yourself live better. What you have gained is some fleeting achievements which will soon be forgotten. Of course you can donate your wealth to charity or research like Bill and Warren. :)

Well, why then did I not choose to do Masters or Phd in Engineering, since I harbor such great ambitions? The first and foremost reason is lack of interest and incapabilities. Having done 3 yrs of college have made me realize where the glass wall lies for me in Engineering. Also, ultimately, one person is never sufficient to create something incredible in this age. Teamwork is most important. Leadership is the key to great achievements. The ability to gather like-minded people and the ability to gather the right expertise for the cause is the key to realizing my dreams. I can never do it alone. Well, of course, my qualities as a leader is far far from being a capable one. I still have much to shape. In fact, I think I'm behind a lot of people in this regard, even those who have no intentions of becoming a leader. But it's alright. Given a couple more years of training, I believe I can emerge as an effective leader. hehe~ Maybe can learn from papaya yeo or uncle lee on how to be a powerful leader, in the field of engineering.

Oh well, having visualized this, I suddenly realized how short life is now. May not have enough time to complete what I want to. But it doesn't really matter. The most important thing in life is not just fulfilling ambitions, but to enjoy life on the way, with your family and friends. Do whatever you can, and whatever you cannot, leave it for others to finish. It just doesn't make sense to work all the way until you are old and realize, when you look back, that you forgot to stop and smell the roses.

haha~ so my word to everyone is still what I have preached earlier. Work may be important, but family and friends are even more important. They are the ones who care for you when you are down, who share your joy and tears. Work only work to bring you stress and frustrations, though they do give you a sense of achievement at the end of it. Oh well... talking about work, guess I better start working now. See ya guyz!