Thursday, October 12, 2006
Every week at this time, I'm a really sad person. Why on earth did I take this blardy class manz?!! Nothing irks me more than doing the hw for this class... and I'm really starting to regret going into motors... My classes look strange this semester... why on earth do I need to know about power systems when I wanna go into motors! And now, motors and drives don't look in the least attractive!!! Ahhh!!! thinking of switching to digital, or controls... but I guess it's probably too late... Then again, it all depends on the first job I'll be having... I just wonder what will it be?

Now, Sometimes I really wonder if I entered the wrong field... Maybe I should have gone into ME instead. I love inventing... and I hope to go into 3M... EE is all about R&D or technical sales... Not at all exciting... sighz... Maybe I really should go into Digital or Controls... Then I can do the digital side of inventing... Oh well... We'll see... Education doesn't stop at College level... It's just the start... the start of my dreams... the start of the magic I conjure... hehe~ The future sure sounds fun!!! But Only if i get a stable job... or better yet, get a job that I'd love!!!

When was the last time I got really excited about something and would lose sleep over? Not 411 homework... and definitely not Microelectronics exam!!! I did lose sleep for them, but there was certainly not a single element of excitement involved. They are my inventions, my musical compositions, and my digital Roulette project... Perhaps those are the stuff that I really care, and I really should strive for... not hateful motors and less hateful MOSFETs (though logic gates are MOSFETs really)!!!

Sometimes I also wonder what will my life be if I were a scholar like my other housemates. Not that I can really be one even if I wanted, it's just a what if question. How will my life be changed? Travelling around the world and visiting Europe, Africa, and what not like my buddy, Allan? Or do what I do now, go home every break. Oh well... things will probably be different if I were using my own $$. I'd probably be like the others, only go back in Summer and still use part of Summer for travelling. But then again, being a family guy I am, I'd probably choose to go back to visit grandma too. Probably it'll be a balance of both. Oh well... it's probably good that I'm not a scholar then... At least I won't have a headache of choosing what to do for my breaks... It'll just be going home to see grandma, to see my friends whom I'll probably see even less next time after I graduate. Will be looking forward to travel more next time... when I start earning $$... hehe~ but then again, leave will be even more scarce then... And it'll be a choice of going home or going travelling... Probably my choice will still be going home... Such shows how attached I am to my family. I really love my family. I really enjoy having dinners with them, even if it only lasts 15 min from 7pm. There were times when I really sprinted up the slope back home just to catch my family for dinner. There were times when I insisted on going late for night basketball games just to have dinner with my family. There were times when I really felt sad when I missed dinner by 10 min. There were times when I refused to have dinner till mum comes home at 8.30pm since she's the only one having dinner that night. I know it's really silly. But I really do feel happy having dinner together with my family and hence the urge to do silly stuff to get what I want. I think doing silly stuff like this sometimes really makes me feel happy and naive, the kind of happiness that was lost since I grew out of my childhood. I'm probably just looking for that lost experience and memory. =) Perhaps that is the reason why I'd choose to have dinner with a loved one rather than having alone, even if it means eating at odd hours. The joy of eating is no longer the food but the company. That is me.

okiez, enough of digression. Time to do work. I'm sure you guys can see that I've been trying to avoid doing the hw that's due tomorrow. gah... Hate 411. Hate motors and drives. Loves digital and controls. Can no longer be made the Knights of NI ever since I blew up my chances with National Instruments. If only I could reload the saved episode of my life and live that part again... If only...

*stage light dims. Mist engulfs the scene.* NI!
posted by Juxling at 11:54 AM

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