Saturday, April 29, 2006
sighz... i'm convinced i'm really not cut out to be a leader... dunno for whatever reasons do I always try to pit myself into deep waters and hoping I'll stay afloat... I'd probably just drown one day... It all happened when I decided to be a nice guy and tried to keep the association from dissolving... In the end, I invited so much troubles to myself... haiz... not sure how to say it actually... but somehow i just feel that i'm just a leader of a group which I feel I'm not really part of it... it feels as if it's just not part of me... my ideals, my dreams... I still believe that they are achieveable and something really different and yet meaningful... I think it's just me, who can't promote what I thought... I think im better off as a solo venturer... I can't work with groups... hmm... I'm seriously considering going on doing the stuff I have in mind, alone man... Trying to Depend on people who don't share my same vision as I do just doesn't help at all... perhaps, im just being too self-centered... but the effort in trying to get pple do what you want is much more than doing it all by yourself... but perhaps that's the quality a leader shd have and a quality im seriously lacking... Perhaps, it all boils down to my inability to convey my ideas and thoughts nicely to the audience... quite disappointed with myself... but what can i do? Im just bad at convincing people... Having bad orator skills is not my fault right? I'm the kind who can only show the results and not the persuasive kind who could allow his audience visualize the results without actual concrete works... Forget it... im me... and I can't just change myself in a few days, or mths... I think im just going to carry out my ideals over summer... I'm not seeking anyone's help and I'm not going to tell anyone about this... sighz... The value of trusting myself and only myself is once again reinforced... It'll derive great pleasure if I could work with pple with similar ideals... but alas... I'm a quirky person... but who cares... I live for myself and only myself... So there!
posted by Juxling at 12:30 PM

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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.