yeah! Finally completed my ECE 352 proj!!! after at least 20 hrs of hard work, frustrations and wad not... Gah... hate all these stuff... the designing part was super duper easy... within 3 hrs can finish designing them on paper liao... budden as usual, the bloody debugging always keeps me from finishing early... darn! Always fill my head with bugs... my stomach too! Since i always worked passed dinner, only coming back to my room at ard 11pm... arrgh! Life of an elec engineer... budden i tink comp engineer worse... haha~ and those programmers over there at comp science building... think their life will be shorter than mine... and will haf white hair sooner... hmmm... or maybe botak!!! due to the frequent pulling of their hair during work... Never will I venture into this field manz in the future... Micro designs stuff... i think i'd rather play with more macro stuff...but quite hard siaz... as techonology advances, things get smaller... Dunno is it Einstein or who said this: It takes a fool to make something that is big, but it takes a genius to make sth that is small... True... super true... moreover now they're tokking abt nanotech even... So many applications for that manz...

Anyway, for my proj, i had a partner... budden i practically did all the work myself... haiz... not that she dun wanna do... possibly it's becuz i worry abt letting her do manz... cuz she's the type who always go partying ones... and so not that academic oriented... gah... i tink i made her felt super bad... haha~ no la, actually she did help in many parts... budden i was the one doing the design and debugging... and she'd be the one copying out my designs on the computer... haha~ sounds like secretary tho... heng she dunno my blog... budden i can't risk my grades manz... well, perhaps it's just something abt me that i had to change... be more reliant on others... Had been trying very hard to change this "Trust no one but yourself" mentality... budden sometimes, it's really hard to trust others to do it when there're many past experiences when u entrust pple with sth and they dun match up to your least standard... Yesh, but i'm still learning to open up and entrust pple wif stuff... After all, there're also experiences and pple whom i really trust and can depend on them... Perhaps, they are the ones whom i noe very well, like my bros, maoyuan, and perhaps those sg frens here, and in fact many of my frens... perhaps becuz i trust their capabilities... budden somehow for projects, u dun always get to work with pple u noe... and it's really hard to trust someone with sth if u dunno him well or if they dun live up to your expectations... Just like in the army... there was once i was the one overall incharge and then i ordered my men to go and raise the flags... heng i went to check later, else im super screwed manz... cuz the flag was raised tombalek... biangz... one of my frens kena the other time cuz he's too lazy to check... how to trust pple readily when u meet stuff like this? Entrusting my own life into the life of others is perhaps not my personality... and perhaps that's a kind of shortcoming too, cuz others will feel bad becuz u dun trust them enuff... I had that feeling too... budden u gotta live to my expectations and show me some standards before i can stop interfering and safely let you do it without worries right? haiz... juz a thought... ya... din expect to drag so long... am super far behind my revision plans... Feeling screwed now... But i always tell myself i've to open up and trust my life partner when i meet her in future... As i've read from the newspapers here, couples are a team, not one leading the other... I think this is very true... it's the key to a long lasting and worthwhile r/s... yepz...

anyway, i've sinned badly on thursday manz... haha~ cuz i bought donuts for my partner... haha~ and she was screaming hysterically... cuz she's on super diet... living on fruits and vege for the past 1 mth... budden due to abstinence violation effect(as she pinched off a bite from the donuts), she took quite a bit of the donut... haha~ no la... gonna repay favors cuz she treated me to dinner the other time, cuz she was late for 2.5 hrs... we planned to meet for proj at 12, but she arrived at 2.30 cuz she woke up at 12ish and din come online till 1ish... i lost her hp no., so can't call her... haha~ budden i too woke up late at 11am la... and i was late for 1 hr too... haha~ well, she was even later... wahahha~ yupz, so i decided to repay that favor... i never like to owe pple favors... feel uncomfortable... perhaps that's yet another shortcoming of me... never ask favor unless someone actually offers... always din like to trouble pple... haiz... why do i haf so many shortcomings? or are they shortcomings at all? are they juz another type of personality...

so there...